It’s time to leave....

I remember growing up and hearing people say "God will never put more on you than you can bear." It was a statement, that through most of my adult life, I would refer to anytime things got hard and I felt like I needed encouragement to keep pushing forward. But as I grow, here's what I'm realizing - maybe God isn't giving ME more than I can handle...maybe I'm doing it to myself.

For 2 years I've needed to leave. I knew I needed to leave then, and looking back only makes me more sure that this thing is NOT what God has for me.

But I stayed.

I stayed because I was mostly comfortable.

I stayed because leaving is unpredictable.

I stayed because starting over is hard.

I stayed because my decision making has been questioned in the past and I'd hate to make a decision that negatively affects my family.

I stayed for a myriad of reasons (excuses) that I made up in my head, and because "when the timing is right, I'll know, and I'll leave".

Truth is, the timing is never "right" to do something that'll take you out of your comfort zone. Cause seriously, who wants to be uncomfortable? Who wants to potentially struggle? Not me....but that choice comes at a high cost...one I'm no longer willing to pay.

So you'd think this revelation would be accompanied with an action right. Nope, not yet! Cause change is hard, and I'm still struggling with doing things that are in my best interest FIRST! What's amazing is that my support system is like :

LET 👏🏾 THAT 👏🏾 GO 👏🏾!!!

...and I'm here for all the encouragement.

While I'm still not quite sure how I'll go about ending this season, I'm owning that I'm in control of how this goes.

It's time to stop carrying a load that I was never meant to bear.