Spinning The Block
The hardest thing in the world to do, is to walk away from something that makes you happy because you can’t dedicate yourself to it the way you know it deserves. For me it’s writing. For you, well, just fill in the blank.
Writing is my passion. My mind crafts stories and plots all day long. My desire to share these thoughts and epiphanies after hours, days, and weeks of introspection often means my friends and family get long voice notes from me while I ramble on about what I learned about myself and the world around me. I get lost in thought for hours at a time stringing beautiful words together in my mind, but for the last year and a half I’ve been stagnate.
Last we spoke (consistently), I was telling my readers that 2020 jumped me. Literally - almost 4 years later - I’m just starting to feel like I’m recovering. The last 36 mths were a whirlwind. 3 moves, illness in the family, covid, more responsibilities at work, divorce, and the list goes on. True to life, it's always something, but what never waivers is my longing to feel my fingertips glide across the keys as thoughts form into fluid streams of words, sentences, paragraphs, chapters, blogs, and books. I wake up daily dreaming of sharing my passion with the world, and leave most days disappointed at my inability to do the thing I love. It weighs on me.
But with each new day that I’m granted, I’m starting to see how there was something I needed to learn from this experience. I asked an author/writer that I really respect, what she does when life is so overwhelming that she can’t write.
Her answer? “I don’t, and that’s okay” -EO
Simple and yet profound.
Apart of self care is giving ourselves grace while we learn to navigate new roads in life. In the moment’s that I’m not sharing, more time is spent learning and remembering the lessons. Just know, whenever I do get back to the doing the thing I love…
YA’LL ARE GONNA LOVE IT HERE!
In the meantime, walking away or needing a break isn’t always a bad thing! When it’s something you love, you’ll always spin the block!